THEME
gone..

opened a new door, because i burned the old one.

Posted 25 Oct
no matter what, ain’t no crying. you don’t gotta tell me it hurt. I know it hurt. no cryin’. to lose somebody you really love and they not dead? suck it up and roll; but you dead to me. yeah, yeah. love you with all my heart…. I swear to God I do. so I forgive you, but I’ll never forget what you did.
- Kevin Gates, Imagine That.
Posted 30 Sep

in another life.

Posted 19 Jul
argument with fake daddy

babygrii:

TL;DR basically this fake daddy came to me and asked me to be his little and I said I was going through some things. He flipped his shit on me and basically said all littles were selfish, that his punishments for his last little included; “taking away stuffies and time out from me”. He then went out to say that I was attacking him because I didn’t agree with his points. I’ll copy the conversation. But please be aware that fake daddies out there exist and it’s not your fault if you get the heat by one! my daddy is very proud with how i dealt with this!! :) 

[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  8:51 PM
I didn't say all littles were selfish and I said most are
And all the punishments you're describing were said to be correct by littles and bigs who have been doing this for years SS
Same with the most littles are selfies thing
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  8:52 PM
breh, who you to judge that. do you understand how big the DD/LG community is? do you understand how many littles there are
dude don't even fucking keep going if you actually want me to get nasty.
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  8:52 PM
Then why do I keep getting the same answer ?
The same littles
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  8:52 PM
about what?
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  8:53 PM
Thst most littles are selfish
I even hear that from littles!
You're the only one who's defended my last littles actions
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  8:53 PM
THEY'RE IN AGE REGRESSION THE FUCK YOU THINK WAS GOING TO HAPPEN THAT DOESNT MAKE THEM SELFISH AT ALL
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  8:53 PM
Even she said she was way wrong
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  8:54 PM
that's great and all! i'm glad she admitted to her wrong-doings!
but you have to admit to yours!
you're not perfect either!
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  8:54 PM
That's like saying every time I see a police officer I'm gonna punch someone cuz of all the trauma they caused me
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  8:54 PM
welcome to a realistic fucking world!
you would've fucked up too
and listen
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  8:55 PM
Umm I have... I even went above and beyond for her and I was told I should have dumped her a while ago
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  8:55 PM
OH, so you never did anything wrong
sounds like you're throwing a big pity party
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  8:55 PM
What ?
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  8:55 PM
one that deems itself not necessary
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  8:55 PM
U just said I did
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  8:56 PM
THE ONLY THING YOU ADMITTED TO FUCKING UP WAS "GOING ABOVE AND BEYOND"
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  8:56 PM
I stayed with her too long. Was too Lieniant with her. I coddled her too much
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  8:56 PM
are you fucking
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  8:56 PM
Again I'm telling u what happened
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  8:56 PM
kidding me
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  8:57 PM
I got shrinks telling me the same thing
They're wrong too
The scientific community is just wrong
What u gonna argue next climate change ?
As for other little realitojships I've had I've misjudged certain personality traits
Mistaking them for something else.
I mean I'm harder on myself that  anyone
I guess except for u
But I'm not about to lie and say I've been treated right most littles
Sadly bigs aren't much better. Arguably worse
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  9:01 PM
perception is a marvelous thing don't you think? don't you think it's amazing how one person can have a side of a story and the same person involved in the same thing can have a completely different story. The interesting thing about you is not only have you.

1. said that you wanted a little.
2. when i said i couldn't be that for you, called littles selfish
3. said you gave your ex an ultimatum between POT and YOU
4. said that the only thing you did wrong was went above and beyond**

what's interesting here, my friend. Is that so far, I have witnessed that as soon as I said that I'm not interested you saying that littles are selfish was this fucking shitty guilt tripping ploy to make me feel like i had no other choice but to give you a chance. 

Then you went on to tell me a sad sob story about your ex who smoked pot and needed punishments like abandoning her and taking away her stuffies i.e. her coping mechanisms. 

There's so many different perspectives. I guess yours is just victim playing.
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  9:02 PM
What the hell ?
I said I hope u find a Daddy
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  9:03 PM
and i hope you see a shrink who sees past your victim mentality :x
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  9:03 PM
I've been dealing with this stuff for days weeks longer
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  9:03 PM
wow i've been dealing with shit my whole life
welcome!
join the fucking club
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  9:03 PM
You've never had a Daddy but ok right
Oh now you're gonna listen to shrinks jeez
Naked up ur mind
Make up
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  9:04 PM
oh, no, my daddy asked me to tell you i dind't have a daddy
he can message you now if you want
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  9:04 PM
Haha wow jeez.
That's just creepy
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  9:04 PM
you're just weird
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  9:04 PM
Ya so is science
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  9:05 PM
naw, science is beautiful
can't say the same for you :x
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  9:05 PM
And yet you're arguing with it
Weird
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  9:05 PM
naw
you aren't science
the fuck you think you are
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  9:05 PM
Me ?
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  9:05 PM
dude, you can't talk circles around me
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  9:05 PM
Data is science
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  9:05 PM
LMAO
you're an idiot
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  9:05 PM
Shrinks are science
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  9:05 PM
wow
you really think
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  9:05 PM
Experts are science
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  9:05 PM
shrinks are science
whoooo mama
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  9:06 PM
Scientists. Teachers. Doctors.
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  9:06 PM
you're lacking a few brain cells dude
either that or i imagine you're into conspiracy theories too
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  9:06 PM
A person mistreat somebody and u defend them
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  9:06 PM
listen kid. Can i call you a kid? cause you're acting younger than my mental age
so just hear me out
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  9:06 PM
And then u go after the person she mistreated
Kid? You're complete discounting anything anyone of note says on the subject thst doesn't fit your narrative
All you've done is try to twist it to throw stones on me
You sound like a guy trying to defend the male gender
Oh no no not all men
"I'm sorry your mom died" then proceeds to double back on that statement... jeezz
Honesty is the best policy. Too often humans. Especially littles run from that.
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  9:13 PM
oh yeah, crazy hwo that works
yet you're the one sitting here
feeling the need
to defend yourseelf
kid
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  9:13 PM
There's was nothing to defend until u started to invent stuff to defend!!!
Jeez
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** -  9:13 PM
lmao
[[REDACTED FAKE DOM]] -  9:14 PM
All you've done is lie and attack me to defend your breatheren
It's giving me chills cuz I see men, white people, cis and straight people etc do the exact same thing
Cuz they don't want to be attached to a majority doing something wrong even though nobody said all of them are bad or selfish or what have u
April 21, 2017
***[REDACTED BADASS SMALL ONE]*** - Today at 7:46 AM
lie and attack you to defend my brethren? who the fuck my brethren? the fact i'm standing up for age regression and your "punishments"? yeah, i'm lying and attacking you to defend that. The fact you literally called all littles selfish once i said no to you being my daddy? lying? yeah okay sure. But the thing with screenshots and copy and paste is that it makes you look weak and me look strong. 

Firstly, you're going to attack males? are you not male yourself? what a hypocritical standpoint to view. Males aren't all alike. Not all of them lie, defend their actions, or even hurt people. 
Secondly, white people? maaaaan, you got me all sorts of fucked up. This has always been a interesting topic to me. Cause damned if majority of white people sticking up for fucking trump half the time. They were happier with Obama.
Thirdly, CIS and straight people? a WHOLE sexuality you're attacking now? holy shit, I so wasn't aware straight and cis people were the damned of all earth, the scum, the leeches. Funny that because as a straight person I would stand behind LGBTQ rights forever and always. I would always go to protests.

SO THE FUCK YOU TALKING ABOUT YOU SEEM THE ONE THROWING A PITY PARTY AND YOU MEANT TO BE A MINORITY SORT YOUR SHIT
as for me having a daddy, he told me to tell you i didn't. That's not my lie. if you have an issue with how my daddy says things. you can address him heavily if you'd like. Although I have a feeling you wouldn't. Partly because he's a CIS STRAIGHT MALE

@toodomforyou @lovemysub


My little absolutely massacres fake dom fuckboys. She may be small, but I’ve readied her for the world in such a way these failure attempts at predators will have no chance at manipulating, brainwashing, or making her sway from her point of views when she knows she is right.


Littles are fucking powerful, and those who seek to take advantage of them should be weary. They can still own the fuck out of a fake lamer.


No prouder moment than seeing my strong little kicking ass and taking names.

-No Mercy

Posted 20 Apr

sleepyclover:

people are allowed to leave you.
people are allowed to break up with you.
people are allowed to love you but not want to be with you.
people are allowed to not want to talk to you.
people are allowed to put their happiness before yours and do what makes them happy even if it does not include you.
people are allowed to move on from you.
people are allowed to fall in love with someone else.
people are allowed to not want you in their life.
people are allowed to do whatever they want to better themselves and become the version of themselves they are trying so hard to love.
don’t be bitter towards someone who is only trying to be happy.

(via asenabiyon-deactivated20170916)

Posted 12 Mar
I promise you
I will try harder
to be better.
I
have battled with things
inside me
for longer than you know;
I do not know
what they are
or why they are there,
I only know
that they feel
manageable,
defeatable,
when I
am around
You.
- Tyler Knott Gregson
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Posted 1 Mar
i’m an atheist, but please god, let me forget you

writingsforwinter:

Walking through a field of crushed eggshells I find a bruised butterfly in my mouth with both wings torn off. That’s how I feel without you, as if flight is no longer possible without your limbs holding me up to the sky. Missing your mouth and kissing myself isn’t easy because my teeth always clack together when they hit the mirror. I remember when you pressed apologies into my tailbone and pretended that every notch of my spine was holy ground when you walked over it to crack my back.

Holding you felt like running through a sea of grain because everything receded too quickly. In the back of my mouth it still tastes like your mouth, as if we’re nested inside each other like Matryoshka dolls. Now I understand the term “muscle memory” because all my muscles can’t forget what they felt like beneath yours. It’s not a case of short-term memory, or even long-term memory; it’s a case of infinitely-always memory.

I go to grocery stores just to stare at the aisles of frozen anchovies because no one wants to spend time with them or be close to them, and I can identify with that feeling because everyone else isn’t you. I plan my daily routine around missing you, giving myself time after waking up to mourn you a little bit before dragging myself out of bed and putting on the slippers you used to hate.

Breakfast is the worst because you used to eat it with me, and every slice of toast smells like your back left shoulderblade, butter and all. Now I know why falling down a well doesn’t feel like falling in love. Now I know why my calendar always looks like it’s going backwards.

Everything comes into existence if it’s colored brightly enough, or it should at least. But your aura was exquisite yet you’re still not here. I can still taste your colors. It’s like phantom taste syndrome instead of phantom limb syndrome. That’s why all twenty five thousand of my tastebuds are rainbow.

There are shapes we made in the bed sheets together that I’d never wish out of my head, shapes geometry thought were impossible. There are feelings I’d never want my worst enemy to feel that I felt with you. In my dreams I stuff cold orange slices into my mouth one after the other while we make direct eye contact. It symbolizes how I’m always lust-loving after you even when we can’t so much as touch.

I’ve started writing suicide notes. But they’re not the normal kind- they’re not for myself. They’re because I wish the feeling of missing you would just kill itself already.

I never believed in ghosts until you.

Posted 31 Jan
People change and forget to tell each other.
- Lillian Hellman
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Posted 6 Jan
Perhaps we’ll meet again when we’re better for each other.
- Ten Word Poem #6  (via jesussbabymomma)

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Posted 4 Jan